St. Agnes Academy is Having a
Fortieth Reunion
©Jane Darin 1995
I longed to climb the senior stairs
And searched You out, my God.
I pleaded for my mother, "Save her."
Yet covered my ears and cried, "Don’t call me!"
Frightened by her mortality I stared into mirrors,
I studied the backs of hands, smooth, clear.
"Will I grow fat? Will I be sick?"
And You whispered only, "Yes. In time. Wait."
In yearbook pictures, the progress of her
cancer lies on my face.
She dies. She is fifty-four.
I am sixteen. I am motherless
I climb the senior stairs to You, my Lord.
I am scared. Now I plead, "Take me too."
And You whisper only, "I will. In time. Wait."
I am fifty-seven and I realize only the body
dies.
Life is a spiral ever drawing me closer to You, my God.
What is there to fear?
I have climbed the senior stairs.
The backs of my hands are stained, wrinkled.
I am fat, yet celebrate my age.
I see Your face in mirrors and ask,
"What would You have me do with these extra years?"
And You whisper only, “Come. In time. Wait
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